Light of the Dancing Flame

noonezlistenin @ 2009-04-13T09:29:00

2009-04-13T13:30:30Z

So I go through another dry spell. Apparently the shortest one ever because now I've got this?

What am I getting myself into...

P.S. I love diner trips with Diva, even though she makes me want to eat more lol

noonezlistenin @ 2009-04-09T01:12:00

2009-04-09T05:13:23Z

This could be the staaaaarrrrrtttt.....

Please feel free to finish the line. Or make up your own words. That's always more fun :)

noonezlistenin @ 2009-04-04T07:49:00

2009-04-04T11:50:41Z

I feel so discombobulated and uncomfortable right now.

What the hell happened to make me feel wrong in my own skin?

I'm going to bartending school. I'm making the call today.

noonezlistenin @ 2009-03-31T12:04:00

2009-03-31T16:04:35Z

I feel drained. And totally empty.

I want to quit my job and wait tables. I'd be totally happy with that.

noonezlistenin @ 2009-02-07T17:42:00

2009-02-07T22:43:54Z

Oh my Lord. I haven't updated this thing in months. It seems almost blasphemous.

Oops. And I realized I can't really update it now since I have to leave in like 20 minutes for 42nd Street. Which is closing tomorrow.

I'll probably post tonight and update everything thats been going on.

Mmkaybye.

noonezlistenin @ 2009-01-09T10:10:00

2009-01-09T15:11:13Z

Why do I feel like the bandwagon left without me?

Whatever. Go have your fun. I'll just jump on a different one. You can't keep me down.

noonezlistenin @ 2009-01-03T22:46:00

2009-01-04T03:48:13Z

I am so fucking horny i think im going to explode.

There I said it.

What are you gonna do about it?

...i could say so many things right now...

noonezlistenin @ 2008-12-27T12:59:00

2008-12-27T18:08:49Z

Ahhhh Bleach. My obsession with you never ceases to amazie me.

I now have an idea for a third tattoo. And I'm going with my mother to get my second while she gets her first. I love life.

I love being able to help people. And being able to be there for someone.

I really enjoy telling people the truth. And what I really think. I come off as quite an asshole as of late, but honestly, I enjoy seeing shock in people's faces when I tell them what everyone else is afraid to. And while they may be pissed at me for a few minutes, I really think I'm helping them out. I promise I'm not trying to be a dick. I just have this need to eradicate the necessity for people to talk behind eachothers backs.

Starting with myself. If you want to know what I think of you, just ask. I can't promise that you'll enjoy all of it, but everyone has something great to show. And please, by all means, if I do something wrong, don't sit there and tell me everythings fine. I won't be offended. I enjoy a good dose of reality, and if I'm doing something stupid, I'd rather you tell me so I can fix it, rather than keep doing it and have people talk about how ridiculous I look (even though I know I look ridiculous most of the time anyway :P).

I guess subconsciously I'm fishing for something. I want someone to tell me I'm doing something wrong because I feel like I am doing something wrong. I feel like I'm always wrong or at fault or always to blame, and I guess I'm looking for someone to tell me I'm right so I don't have this nagging feeling in my gut that it's my fault.

Psychology is totally fucked up.

But I love it.

And I'm pretty good at it.

I think I might switch my major again.

I can't wait to see Lauraaaaaaaaaa.

In The Heights was incredible.

Christmas went really well. Yay $2000 keyboard!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love random ridiculous updates.

Love me.

noonezlistenin @ 2008-12-18T17:28:00

2008-12-18T22:29:58Z

What. The. Fuck.

Mr. A?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?

WHAT THE FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK

noonezlistenin @ 2008-12-06T01:42:00

2008-12-06T06:43:46Z

And I think to myself...what a wonderful world :)

And yes, I really am that gay that I would quote the most cliche song of life.

Judge away. You won't get me down :)

noonezlistenin @ 2008-12-04T09:55:00

2008-12-04T15:49:18Z

Really?

4 straight vodka martinis in a half an hour?

I am SO done with you.

I'm looking for an apartment. Who wants to come live with me.

noonezlistenin @ 2008-11-26T23:06:00

2008-11-27T04:08:54Z

That was absolutely ridiculously overdramatic and stupid.

Like im still in awe.

And thank you God for giving me Laura, who knows how to talk to me.

Love.

noonezlistenin @ 2008-11-24T23:34:00

2008-11-25T04:35:50Z

Michael: "When Maksim dances, I just wanna dance along with him."

Laura: "When James Franco takes off his clothes, I take mine off with him."

Mason: "......Scarlett Johansen is cute..."

Such is life.

Oh. And I wrote two songs with Mason. The End.

noonezlistenin @ 2008-11-23T11:22:00

2008-11-23T16:24:12Z

I kissed a Broadway star.

Who told me that if I'm ever in the city that we need to see each other.

I'm floating on a cloud.

noonezlistenin @ 2008-11-20T23:28:00

2008-11-21T04:34:09Z

Im determined to lose weight. I want to get my body into good shape. It'll help me not only in auditions (which totally typecast despite what anyone says), but itll help me gain a lot more confidence in myself. If I think I look good, then Ill probably look good to other people.

If I can lose 25 lbs by summer, ill be totally happy.

I can do it.

I just need a kickstart. Something to start me off. So I dont feel like this is another lost cause already.

Look out world. I plan on being hot.

noonezlistenin @ 2008-11-16T11:33:00

2008-11-16T16:41:23Z

Im obsessed with Songs for A New World.

Obsessed.

And yesterday reminded me why I was choosing to do the things Im doing with my life. Why I do what I do. Why I live how I live.

I had fun at work. I fucking LOVED seeing my playbeagle, since I havent seen her on stage since Beauty and the Beast with me (A side note, i was INCREDIBLY jealous that I wasnt able to share the stage with her). And just seeing her sing her heart out made me totally content with my life. And then on top of that, I had the longest conversation Ive had with Sara in months, and she just seemed so...back to normal in a sense. Like nothing had changed and her life wasnt consumed by everything she does at school. I missed her so much. And THEN I had probably the most amazing show Ive ever had in my life. My voice was back, I belted the SHIT out of Tom Dick or Harry, and i just...clicked. Everything was just so right yesterday.

And Im still feeling the high from it.

On top of that, Laura, lets discuss this apartment situation. My parents are a go :)

noonezlistenin @ 2008-11-08T12:45:00

2008-11-08T17:44:57Z

Actions definitely speak louder than words.

noonezlistenin @ 2008-11-04T23:07:00

2008-11-05T04:07:41Z

Ladies and Gentleman, we have a black president.

OBAMARAMAAAAAA

noonezlistenin @ 2008-11-04T09:05:00

2008-11-04T14:07:12Z

I just contributed to the democratic process.

Its such a small thing, but i feel so accomplished!

And despite me being retarded, I really did miss Diva and Andy.

noonezlistenin @ 2008-11-01T18:04:00

2008-11-01T22:05:09Z

baby pictures on my myspace if anyone wants to seeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Kyleigh Madison Cavallaro

2008-10-31T02:46:45Z

born on October 30, 2008 at 9:07 PM

not weighed as of yet as she is three hours old, but the nurse estimated 7Lbs 10Oz

My sister was absolutely GLOWING when I walked into the room. Ive never seen her smile that big in her life. And now she had this beautiful bllinking little baby cradled in her arms.

I didn't cry when I saw the baby. I didn't cry when I FINALLY got to hold her. I only teared up when they took the baby upstairs to the nursery and Rachel gave her a kiss goodnight. It was the most heartwarming thing Ive ever seen in my life.

Quote of the night goes to Mr. Cavallero, father of the father of the baby lol.

"Rachel, Congratulations. I'm so happy right now. Because tonight I didnt just get a granddaughter. I think I got a daughter too."

I cant stop smiling :)

And now, since you dont read this, and Im not risking my reputation by writing it on here.

Congratulations Rachel. Shes the most beautiful baby Ive ever seen. I love you so much. I cant even tell you how proud I am of you and the person youve become in the past year. This is the greatest thing thats ever happened to you, and just being here to witness it makes me so happy to say Im your big brother. Youll be the best mother anyone could ever be. Have fun. And know that I am ALWAYS here for you :)

Sara's questions (I know im late)

2008-10-25T17:17:35Z

1. Besides 42nd Street, what show are you dying to be in?
Good Lord, this is a tough one. Theres soooooo many. If I had to limit it to one? Id say Sweeney Todd hands down. Id would probably sell my soul to play Tobias. And Im really not just saying that. He just such an amazingcharacter. Theres so much to him, but its hidden because, well, hes retarded lol. Two more noteworthy ones that Ill probably never do? Jack in Into The Woods and Chip in Spelling Bee. But UGH theres so many more lol.

2. How many times does a person have to call for you to know that it's important?
HAHAHA Isn't this the question on everyone's minds. Honestly, if you call me twice, i'll call you back hands down. It just depends on what I'm doing at the time of the phone call. If you call me once, and Im busy, you know not to expect a phone call. Its not meant to be offensive I promise. Its just the way I work. If you only call once, my ADD goes crazy and I usually just forget to call back. If you call more than once it usually sticks in my head better.

3. Have you ever thought about going to school for composition?
Actually? Yeah, Ive thought about it. But Id never do it. Writing music is something I do for fun. I cant have deadlines or anything, because if its rushed, itll definitely sound like it. I mean, come on, its taken almost three years for me to finally finish my one song, and im pretty sure im not done with it yet.

4. If you had to take one dance class, what would it be in and why?
Tough...but probably modern. If I had to limit it to one, then I wouldn't do tap, because I'm already fairly decent at it. And I move like a black girl when I dance normally so hip hop is out. I dont know, Id wanna do something ive never really done before, just so I could get a taste of it.

5. Favorite guilty pleasure?
Looking at pictures of cosplayers. Its disgusting. But I love seeing people try to recreate cartoon character costumes.

noonezlistenin @ 2008-10-16T04:01:00

2008-10-16T08:02:00Z

I just had the most amazing night ever. Ive never connected with someone so well in my entire life.

Taurus and Taurus. Who'da thunk? Besides Laura?

noonezlistenin @ 2008-10-13T10:40:00

2008-10-13T14:41:31Z

Oh, how I missed Sara Truluck.

I think shes actually my good luck charm, because as soon as i saw her i got a text message lol.

noonezlistenin @ 2008-10-06T22:43:00

2008-10-07T02:46:01Z

I thoroughly enjoy Katie Winner's company.

Tonight was full of wonderful venting sessions.

I want to go see a psychic.

I'm now excited for thursday night.

I really hope Erika gets Peggy and Steve gets Billy. Because then I wouldn't feel as down.

I'm addicted to yet another game.

I need more music in my life.

I'm currently writing songs with Mason Ingling. Huzzah!

This is a ridiculously random entry.